“I wasn’t supposed to be here.”

This week, I attended my Campus Ministry’s Spring Revival. I was touched by the message, as I always am. However, there was something the preacher said on Day 2 that struck me and has inspired me to share a rather personal anecdote.

“I wasn’t supposed to be here.” Everyone is here for a reason, but some of God’s toughest warriors know that the devil has been forming weapons against them since birth.

“I wasn't supposed to be here.” Those words echo through my mind, a reminder of the odds stacked against me from birth. Before I was born, my mother was diagnosed with arthritis and lupus. This affected her fertility, resulting in two miscarriages. As one could imagine, her spirit was broken, but she never stopped trusting God; holding on to the hope of brighter days.

In a miraculous twist of fate, she was blessed with a third pregnancy. Born healthy, without complications, I was named Miracle—a testament to the divine intervention that guided my existence.

As a young girl, my family and I faced many challenges, physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and financially.

Personally, I struggled with anxiety, ADHD, and seasonal depression, facing battles on multiple fronts. The devil has been whispering echoes of doubt and anxiety in my ear since I was little; threatening to extinguish the flame of faith within me. It has caused me to be inconsistent in my walks with God due to fear and self doubt.

Yet, through it all, I have built unwavering faith and I always go back to God. I’ve learned that it is okay to hit rock bottom, because God is the rock at the bottom. I have an unyielding belief in God's plan for my life. In moments of uncertainty, I am reminded that my existence is not without purpose; there is a divine reason for every breath I take. My blessings most certainly outweigh my struggles, because I know that when I have nothing but God, I still have everything.

I want to emphasize that I share my story not out of a desire for pity or sympathy, but rather with a heart filled with transparency and a conviction to inspire others. I believe in wearing my heart on my sleeve, not as a sign of weakness, but as a testament of God’s promises. My journey serves as a testament to the transformative power of faith and the unwavering belief that if God is for us, then who can be against us?

I wasn't supposed to be here— on satan’s terms. But I am— on God’s terms.